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i’m not going to say it, because i don’t want to jinx it.
but i will say this:
i have been smiling more.

my feet don’t feel as heavy as before,
and it’s not as much of a chore to get out of bed every morning.
i haven’t seen 4am in a while,
and when my therapist asks me “on a scale of 1-10 how often do you think about dying?” i can honestly say a solid 5 instead of my usual 9.

i’m not going to say it, because i don’t want to jinx it.
but i will say this:
i have been smiling more,
and i haven’t seen 4am in a while.

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- morning thoughts (8:30 am)

(Source: misplacedpens)